Going on Vacation – When Everything Goes Wrong – Guest Entry by Miri – Part Two

If you haven’t read part one, check it out first:  Going on Vacation – When Everything Goes Wrong – Guest Entry by Miri – Part One

The Weather

The weather is the one thing no human can influence, so I couldn’t be mad about that at anyone. Weather is inherently unpredictable. When we got there, the sky was partially blue, partially cloudy, and it wasn’t hot, but it wasn’t cold, either. Perfectly acceptable weather for bathing, one may assume, but the issue we had was that there was a chilling, unforgivingly sharp wind that made you feel like you would freeze to death when you got out of the water if the sun wasn’t shining on you in full blast. Therefore, whenever there were clouds in the sky, swimming in the ocean was out of the question. One day, I still went ahead and swam in the ocean anyway, because the clouds in the sky were so few and the water looked so enticing, and wasn’t swimming in the ocean what I was there for in the first place? The thanks I got was a cold. Runny nose and sore throat that I still haven’t managed to shake. But that is nobody’s fault.

The Area

The area of Albena is divided into two kinds. Walking toward the southern end of the beach, there is nothing but hotel after hotel after hotel (it is a hotel city, after all), and after the one five-star hotel we saw, the hotels get shabbier and shabbier. It is kind of depressing. Walking toward the northern end of the beach, however, leads you into a completely different world. The supervised hotel beach areas come to an end, so you enter the unsupervised, natural beach. At some point a sign tells you that you are leaving Albena, but it doesn’t tell you where that leaves you, just that you are not in Albena anymore. It leaves you in a kind of zero zone, away from civilization. Since there are barely any humans around now, you hear nothing but the rushing of the waves. The nature here was undisturbed. My mother and I were suddenly surrounded by butterflies, almost stepped on a lizard, collected some seriously beautiful seashells, found the seagulls’ secret hangout spot and a small waterfall. Peaceful, idyllic, that was the kind of place where I could have stayed forever.

42473005_1862358530516126_5857320284813524992_n.jpg

Then we also made a trip to Nessebar, which is a gorgeous little peninsula in the southern corner of Bulgaria, and this was a truly wonderful place. Full of old churches, and so small you could not get lost even if you tried, it was just lovely. We ate the best food of the entire stay in Bulgaria in a restaurant directly by the ocean, on a veranda that gave us a view of the water with the sun’s rays dancing on the waves. The sky was blue, and the ocean was calm, and to round it off, we did a short trip around the coast on a small boat. In short, I loved it.

We visited Nessebar on Saturday, and on Sunday I already felt a little sniffly, yet I couldn’t help it—I still needed to go swim in the ocean. I got stung in the foot by a jellyfish, but it was one of the harmless kind, blue-purplish as they occur in large numbers in that area. At first, my foot burned quite uncomfortably, but soon the burning only returned sporadically, to give way to an annoying itchiness later on, and the next day everything was fine, so that didn’t spoil the rest of our stay. We left on Tuesday.

42440855_1384853448321337_3402913197190021120_n.jpg

The Worst Flight Ever

The transfer bus picked us up at 5:30 pm. Our flight from Varna was scheduled to depart at 8:40 pm. We arrived at the airport in Varna around 7, and after the check-in, which took quite a while because of the sheer mass of people in line, we still had half an hour left before boarding was set to begin at 8. Thus, we picked up some snacks and a bottle of water and settled in to wait. Now, 8 pm came and went, without any sign of progress. We just sat there and waited, not knowing what exactly was going on. 8:40 pm came and went, as well, and we hadn’t even boarded the plane. One guy who sat behind us at the gate was well-informed and told us the plane we were supposed to board had not even left Düsseldorf yet. At some point after we had been waiting for more than an hour, there finally was an announcement: our flight was delayed for two hours and twenty minutes and would now depart at 11 pm. In the end, we departed at 11:30. What had happened was that the plane had been supposed to depart from Düsseldorf at a certain time, but two undeclared suitcases caused a security breach, and subsequently everybody had to leave the already boarded plane and identify their luggage.

But all of that hardly mattered to me at this point. I was sickly, my head was hurting, so was my stomach, and I was dead tired by the time our plane finally left Varna airport. I was just glad we were finally in the air. I just wanted to go home. I was also very sorry because a friend of mine (who’d also been taking care of the cats in our absence) had promised to pick us up from the airport in Düsseldorf, but of course she’d been expecting us at 11 pm, not in the middle of the night. Additionally, it was unclear whether we would still be landing in Düsseldorf, because Düsseldorf airport only accepts arrivals until 11 pm. There are special exceptions to this rule, and I was desperately hoping we would be one of those.

About half an hour into the flight, the flight attendings asked if there was a doctor on board. Three people stood up and were led to the front of the plane. My mother and I couldn’t really see what was going on, but we did see that the physicians didn’t return to their seats. Some time later, the plane started dropping, and an announcement was made. There would be an unscheduled pitstop at Nuremberg airport because of a medical emergency.

At this point, I was close to tears. I was exhausted and tired and frustrated, and of course nobody can help it if there’s a medical emergency, but that was just the cherry on the damn cake. After everything, now we had to endure this, too; as I’d told my mom when we were still waiting at the airport, this vacation was jinxed. So we landed in Nuremberg, and we were told that it would just be a quick pitstop, 20 minutes, half an hour tops. I was now nauseous from the quick descent on top of everything else. I texted my friend the newest update, who responded with tons of laughing emojis and disbelief, which was sort of the adequate response to this horror of a trip. Her laughter inspired me to make light of the situation, as well, which helped a little. As it turned out, then, the plane’s brakes were too hot, so we would be staying in Nuremberg a bit longer so they could refuel the tank, because why not, I guess. Ultimately, we stayed there for over an hour.

Finally, then, the plane was up in the air again, and we were told that we would NOT be landing in Düsseldorf anymore, but we would be redirected to Cologne, from where we would be transferred to Düsseldorf airport via bus. Another thing that almost made me cry. So we landed in Cologne at about 2:30 am, and the people just couldn’t wait to get out of this cursed plane. Baggage claim took forever and ever because while my mother’s suitcase was one of the first to be sent down the conveyer belt, mine was one of the last ones, as it always is. A baggage claim curse just follows me around wherever I go. Then we had to run toward where we were told the busses waited for us, and I ended up dragging both suitcases behind me because my mother had to light a cigarette and I was done waiting, for anybody or anything.

The bus was a giant red double decker with a luggage trailer attached to it that looked way too small, so the guy who loaded it had to play real-life tetris to fit all our things in. I didn’t stick around to watch our suitcases get smushed, however; I dragged my mother behind me to find a seat. The bus left Cologne at 3:15 am. I dosed and fell asleep, drooling on myself and feeling no shame whatsoever when I realized; I think every occupant on that bus was beyond shame at that point. We arrived at Düsseldorf airport at 4 am, and I texted my friend to let her know where we were; she’d been waiting for us for over an hour, and after we’d pulled our dented suitcases out of the pile, she found us and took us home. I was abundantly grateful to her since I knew she had an appointment in the morning, and yet she’d gone out of her way to save us from having to take a train home, which probably would have finally made me cry for real.

Thus, we arrived at home at 5 o’clock in the morning, a measly five hours later than scheduled, and the vacation was over. Surprisingly, the only thing not to survive the tetris in the luggage trailer was my mother’s small make-up mirror, which was in shards. Everything else, even the delicate seashells I’d collected made it out intact. Maybe the broken mirror was the reason for our bad luck, only it worked in reverse; we had bad luck, and then the mirror broke. Who knows. I guess the lesson here is: if you go to Bulgaria, only book a five-star hotel, and even the worst times come to an end.

Advertisements

Self-Care is Self-Love

Hey my loves,

two weeks ago I mentioned in my holiday blog post how important me-time and self-care is for me. So I thought it would only be natural to write about my experience and my journey with you, as well as share some tips with you.

Self-care means giving yourself permission to pause.

self care.jpeg

Self-care is so important, if you do not take care of yourself you are less likely to be able to take care of others or live your life to the fullest of its possibilities. 2018 has been a year of change for me in so many ways, but especially taking time for myself and realizing that it is important and totally okay to be a little selfish when it comes to your own mental and body health. Self-care helped me to become a much happier and a more positive person, it helped me change my life into a healthy lifestyle.

Self-care is self-love.

If you don’t take care of your mind, your body, how are you suppose to take care of others?

I started with just simply taking care of my skin. I make sure that if I wore makeup that day that I take it off at night, no matter how tired I am. It made a huge difference. After that I incorporated two steps into my evening routine, to let myself feel better about my skin and also make sure to keep the wrinkles away for as long as possible. If you want me to go into detail into my new and updated evening skin care, let me know in the comments and I will. I also do exfoliating and mask session and listen to some soothing music or if I feel like it have a dancing session on my own. Whatever makes you feel calm and happy is the best way for yourself. My tricks might not work for you!

After skin care I started to make sure to clean up after myself more often. Like, pick up my clothes or even doing the dishes more frequently. Trust me, I am not the biggest fan of doing any of these chores, but it will make a difference. And if I get a little messy or don’t do the dishes for two days or three, you know what, that’s okay too. As long as you feel at home and it’s not gross, it’s okay. That’s one thing I learned, too – you don’t have to be perfect in any way.

I am enough. Who I am is enough.
What I do is enough, and what I have is enough.

Another thing I learned is to take things not to personal, everybody is going through their own thing, sometimes their mood or what they say does not have anything to do with you. I learned to choose happiness and not just wait around for it to happen. What I mean with that is: I choose to see the positive, I choose to see the value behind what happened, bad or good. I choose to accept that life is NOT a smooth ride, that I will have bad days, that I won’t stay on my diet every single day. I accepted that life doesn’t need to be perfect and that bad things happen, usually for a reason. And that whatever I or anybody else goes through is part of life.

We can choose how we deal with it, how it affects us, what we make of it. We are the captain of our own lives, we lead the direction it is going in.

I also made the decision to completely change my lifestyle. I eat healthier, I exercise regularly, I make time for my friends and my family and I enjoy the work for college. I choose to see every task, every to-do as a journey, as an experience that further develops me and shapes me to a better person. I choose to stress myself, and I choose to take myself out of situations that are too much for me. But what I will do is, try! So many things this year a new for me in my life, these kind of things used to stress me out, but it doesn’t anymore, because I see it as a challenge that further brightens my future.

I know that all that might not seem as a self-care guideline to you, but this is what has worked for me. Like I said what works for me, might not work for you.

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

How to find your passion project when you have no idea what to do with your life – Guest Blogger Stephanie Vivienne

Have you ever felt that you weren’t achieving great things in life? That’s exactly what I, and many others, have contemplated about in the wee hours of the morning. You aren’t the only one going through this so read on as I tell you that there IS a way out of this. The way out is through finding your passion project.

desk photo

So, what is a passion project?

It is exactly as it reads.

It is a project that you are passionate about. If I told you that you can only do one thing in your life, what would it be? That would be your passion project. It could be blogging, starting your own business, writing a book, or volunteering, along with many other things. Finding your passion project can be difficult but don’t fret as I will show you some of my tips on how you can find your passion project when you have no idea what you want to do with your life.

Figure out what you enjoy

This is my number one tip. Figuring out what makes you tick is crucial to finding your passion project. Without passion, it is merely a project. What do you love? What makes you spring out of bed at dawn?

For me, I enjoy a lot of things, most of which are what many classify as “introvert-type activities”. I enjoy reading books, writing, photography, social media, playing computer games, and working as an entrepreneur. Those are the things that make me tick. What are yours?

clock
Photo by Stephanie Vivienne

You can have multiple passion projects

You aren’t restricted to only one passion project, you can have many. One day, you might feel like working on one project, another you might want to work on another, or if you’re super savvy with time management, you can spend blocks of time a day working on your different passion projects. If you want to focus on one passion project only, then go for it!

Everyone has different interests and work ethic. You do you.

Get inspired by people around you

If you really have no idea what you want to do, get inspired by the people around you, whether in real life or on social media.

See what others are doing and it might spark a lightbulb. In saying that, this doesn’t mean you are copying them, unless you are blatantly copying them exactly. That’s a no-no. Getting ideas from the world around us is perfectly normal. What makes each idea different is the person behind the idea and how he/she can make it reflect themselves.

Now my challenge to you is to find your passion project and let me know what it is! You can catch me on my blog (www.stephanievivienne.com) or chat over on my Twitter (@steph_vivienne) and Instagram (@theworldofpixels).

 

Coloring My Hair Pink & Realizing Things

Hey my loves,

today it’s going to be a little bit of a personal blog entry. The last couple of weeks were tough for a number of reasons and I struggled very hard to upkeep a positive mindset. And while I was in this situation and feeling down a lot, I looked at a lot of different blogs and YouTube channels from other content creators and fellow bloggers who struggle too and it helped. It made me realize that I am not alone in this.

But who got me through it all were my amazing friends who were and still are there for me, even if that means just making me laugh and not talk about it. Sometimes that’s just right. So a huge shout out and thank you to my friends! I love you girls!

Now, you might notice that I never actually talk about any struggles or at least never go into detail and to be honest that is just because I feel like sharing my problems, my private problems, is not something I want to do on a broad platform. But I kind of feel like I want to change that, but in a dimension where I don’t go into my family problems. But rather my struggles with staying motivated and positive.

A couple of days ago I had one of my moods growing out of struggles that just became too much and I decided I needed a change. And that change was dip-dying my hair pink.

Facetune_11-05-2018-21-47-06.JPG

You might know the saying: A picture is worth a thousand words.

When I look at that picture I see a girl who struggled very hard the day before with all her emotions, a girl who had to put on makeup and get out of the house and pretend everything is okay the next one, because where she was going she couldn’t talk about her struggles.

But do you want to know what I also see?
I see a strong woman, who knows that she is stronger than the overwhelming feeling of pain. I see a strong woman, who puts a lot of people first and loves hard. And I see a woman, who is broken, but stands up every damn time.

I see a human with so many great friends, who are her family sometimes more than her actual one. And I see someone who at the end of the day knows that there is always something to live for, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Some days may be hard, some days may be great. That is just how life works.

1

If you are struggling, if you are having dark thoughts, if you feel like you are alone in this world, know this: You are not alone. You are loved. You are worthy.
Please make sure to talk to someone. Here are some sites:

13 Reasons Why Info & Telefonseelsorge

Talk to your friends, to your family or reach out to stranger. You will be surprised.

What I am trying to say is: With all the social media out there, with all the “happy lives” you see, with all the “happiness” around, you can easily think that it is just your life, that it is just you. But here’s the thing: Everyone has struggles. Some are worse, some are not. But everyone has their own struggles they bear every day. Just because social media says something else – better – portrays something else, know this:

A picture says a lot more than what you can see.
A picture is a moment of pretense.

Yes, some pictures aren’t that, but let’s be real, most of the pictures are. Just remember that is okay too. You don’t have to show everyone your pain, but you also do not have to hide it.

3

Now, I am going to sign off and spend the day reading for a term paper and trying not to procrastinate and Netflix instead.

I am very thankful for everyone here on this platform who follows and reads my blog! I hope you all have a wonderful day and spend it laughing!

XoXo,
Jasmin.

 

5 Things that make me happy right now

Hey my loves,

I thought today I would share with you a couple of things that make me happy right now. One of my goals this year is to live my life more positively and have a better and more positive way of looking at things.

Being Busy

Ohne Titel

At the moment I am really busy with Uni stuff and I have to say I absolutely love it and it makes me incredibly happy to be so productive. Especially at the end of the week when I can look back at what I achieved and accomplished I am super proud of myself for being super productive and not procrastinating as much. I also find it always helps with overthinking if I am busy. I literally have no time to think about thinks and that means I can’t overthink anything. And that’s just awesome!

Family

At the moment I’m sitting in the living room of my grandma enjoying the few days off between the new and old year, even though I have a really long list of to-do’s I always like to make sure that I see her around the holidays. And if Uni starts again I at least get over to her place once a week, I just love spending time with her and it always makes me incredibly happy to spend time with her.

Reading

8A7401D2-1CD2-45F0-9268-62839355C8B8.JPG

I’m currently reading one of the books of my reading list for 2018 (make sure to check that entry out). I’m reading ‘The Night Circus’ by Erin Morgenstern and I really enjoy it. It’s very different from anything that I would normally read and it captivates me in such another way than any of my other books. I am really happy that I decided to venture out of my comfort zone and try reading something, which I would normally never and that makes me happy.

New Hobby

895DFE01-CAD0-463C-929D-6FD1BB003D82.JPG

My grandma is currently teaching me how to crochet and although I’m not the greatest (yet – haha) I really enjoy doing this. One of my other goals is to find a couple of new hobbies and I think I will take crocheting on. I really enjoy producing something with my own hands, and it’s also something I never thought I would do. But it makes me really happy and it keeps my mind off and with so much to do that is really something great.

Blogging

Being back on here and writing blog post is making me really happy, because I get to share things that I love and it also is keeping me super inspired. I just really missed it and hated it to be so uninspired. I also missed writing on its own. So now typing this, thinking about all the things I could write about and planning out more blog post just brings a smile to my face.

I would love to know the things that make you happy right now. You have to tell me in the comments.

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

Books: What I Want to Read 2018

Hey my loves,

in today’s post I thought I would share with you my reading list for 2018. I will be updating this along the way this year, but for starters I have a couple of books that made it onto my list for this year.

Processed with VSCO with t1 preset

I am currently reading “The Night Circus” and I absolutely love it, it feels so different to anything I’ve read so far. Mainly because I usually stick to the thrillers and haven’t read any fantasy lately (except for rereading Harry Potter, duh!).

What is on your reading list for 2018? Tell me in the comments.

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.