My Personal Development Story

Hey my loves,

Last week I talked about my final year of College and mentioned my personal development story. I thought I would touch on that a little more and tell you what I mean with that. 

This year has been a year of change for me. I do not even know where I should start, but I guess I start with the beginning.

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I always said that I felt comfortable in my skin and while to a certain degree that was true it changed in the last three years. I was getting to a point where life just seemed to throw bigger and bigger rocks at me. And last year towards the end of it, I decided that it is enough.

I didn’t want to live in a world where I felt displaced and out of order yet alone not in control and I started to look what I can change and I found myself at a mountain of possibilities. So instead of changing my surroundings or dive into something that I would not have been able to do, I decided in order to better my life: I HAVE TO BETTER MYSELF FIRST.

So I did, am still doing.

I decided that I would start with seeing everything as a challenge that I can do, instead of letting myself be muffled by anxious feelings. It was hard at first and to some degree still is, so I would say it’s a work in progress. Everything that was thrown at me I started to handle with these thoughts in my mind:

Will it affect my life in two years?

If it does not matter in two years, why make a big scene? Just accept that something is going wrong or not going the way you imagined it to be. Learn that not everything is in your control.

Will it matter next week? Next month? Next year?

This is basically the same thing as I said before, but in a short period of time. Is it just bad right now? Or will it be bad for a longer time? What can I change? How should I deal with it?

What can I do to make the situation more comfortable for me?

Obviously this won’t make everything go away, but I have found that talking about why I am uncomfortable or that I do not wish to do a certain things is more likely to be accepted by my friends/family than I ever thought. Just be honest to yourself and to the people in your life. They won’t judge you for what you’re feeling, even if they don’t understand it.

What can I change about it that I can do right now?

Is there a way that I can change the situation and if so what do I have to do to make a change? Should I maybe start with myself? Or does the problem lie somewhere else?

While early on in my life I would have had a freak-out or a desperate crying session I now surround myself with tools to handle these types of situations. Sometimes a big old breathing in session is all you need, trust me. Just give yourself a couple of seconds to think about it, to let it sink in. It might not seem as bad a couple of minutes later.

Another thing I changed in myself is my body.

And that started with my mind. While I’ve always been comfortable in my skin, I always felt like an outsider simply because of my weight. But here’s the thing, if you don’t care about it, it’s more likely that everybody else won’t care about it either. What I mean with that is, I let myself be strung back by my weight, I pushed myself down and had thoughts like “Well they wouldn’t like me anyway!” or “Nobody that looks like me would do that”.
So I changed my mindset, I told myself:

Your weight does not define the person you are. You do.

Your weight is not holding you back. You are.

And I tried to figure out what I can do to change my thinking. And for me it was pretty clear that in order to change my thinking I have to lose some weight, because, truth be told, I did not feel comfortable in my skin anymore. In order to lose the weight, in a healthy and continuous way, I had to change my lifestyle. I want to be as healthy as I can. I have not set myself a goal weight, because I believe that the number on the scale should not define the way you feel. I don’t count calories or follow a diet or at least no longer. But that is a story for another time. Instead, I am going to the gym and portion control my food and I chose healthier options.

My body has changed, my mind has changed.

I’ve lost over 20 pounds so far. I am proud of my achievement, but what I am more proud of is that I managed to stay on track, that even though some day might not be a good and healthy day, that as long as I am active and live 80 percent of my time healthy that it was okay. I am a happier, more confident and a more positive person: and I did that.

I got a job beside my studies, I can barely sit still and I do much more with my friends than before. I pulled myself out of hole and plastered it up. And I am still working on it, on me. I have so many more things I want to do to change my life around, but I will do it one step at a time. For now, what I am doing is working and in a year’s time, who knows where I’ll be at.

I hope I could give you somewhat of a good insight into my personal development story. If you have any question, feel free to ask them in the comments or DM me on Instagram or Twitter. You’re also more than welcome to shoot me an Email if you prefer that.

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

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5 Things that make me happy right now

Hey my loves,

I thought today I would share with you a couple of things that make me happy right now. One of my goals this year is to live my life more positively and have a better and more positive way of looking at things.

Being Busy

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At the moment I am really busy with Uni stuff and I have to say I absolutely love it and it makes me incredibly happy to be so productive. Especially at the end of the week when I can look back at what I achieved and accomplished I am super proud of myself for being super productive and not procrastinating as much. I also find it always helps with overthinking if I am busy. I literally have no time to think about thinks and that means I can’t overthink anything. And that’s just awesome!

Family

At the moment I’m sitting in the living room of my grandma enjoying the few days off between the new and old year, even though I have a really long list of to-do’s I always like to make sure that I see her around the holidays. And if Uni starts again I at least get over to her place once a week, I just love spending time with her and it always makes me incredibly happy to spend time with her.

Reading

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I’m currently reading one of the books of my reading list for 2018 (make sure to check that entry out). I’m reading ‘The Night Circus’ by Erin Morgenstern and I really enjoy it. It’s very different from anything that I would normally read and it captivates me in such another way than any of my other books. I am really happy that I decided to venture out of my comfort zone and try reading something, which I would normally never and that makes me happy.

New Hobby

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My grandma is currently teaching me how to crochet and although I’m not the greatest (yet – haha) I really enjoy doing this. One of my other goals is to find a couple of new hobbies and I think I will take crocheting on. I really enjoy producing something with my own hands, and it’s also something I never thought I would do. But it makes me really happy and it keeps my mind off and with so much to do that is really something great.

Blogging

Being back on here and writing blog post is making me really happy, because I get to share things that I love and it also is keeping me super inspired. I just really missed it and hated it to be so uninspired. I also missed writing on its own. So now typing this, thinking about all the things I could write about and planning out more blog post just brings a smile to my face.

I would love to know the things that make you happy right now. You have to tell me in the comments.

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

10 Things That Make Me Happy

Hey my loves,

Finding positivity and happiness these days is really hard. It all seems, in a way, like a very bad dream. A nightmare we wouldn’t want to wish on anyone.

But a couple of days ago I found a video on my timeline on Facebook that made me genuinely happy and sparked the flame of hope for humanity once again. It was a video of a group of people singing ‘Oh Happy Day’ in a mall in Germany. It was set up like a flash mob and they were only using their voices, but that particular song and the genuine happiness you felt during their singing was inspiring. Even though it was just under three minutes it made me smile for the whole day. I believe the world should be filled with more spontaneous happy moments like that. Don’t you agree?

And because I was so inspired by this little moment of happiness I thought I would share the things that make me happy with you. So here they are:

My Friends

Friends are the family you choose. And let me tell you I’m so grateful to the friends I have and all the happy moments I share with them. But it’s more than just the happy times that make me happy. I’m grateful that no matter what is coming my way I know I have my friends who have my back, who make me smile in the saddest of times and who endure my stubbornness.

Rain at the End of a Sunny Day

Well, this might sound a bit crazy but just close your eyes for one second and imagine this: You have been out all day on a field picnicking with your friends. It’s super hot and the air lingers without any wind over the ground. But then you can start to smell something. You start to smell the rain coming. And then it starts to rain but instead of seeking cover you enjoy the cold rain on your heated skin. And it’s such a release that the air feels a little colder and fresher. I love that feeling. Don’t you?

Snow

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Yes, I know it’s summer but I’m listing everything that makes me happy and snow is one of them. And I mean real snow, the kind you build snowmen with and slide downhill or have snowball fights with your friends. The kind where it’s crispy cold outside but yet sunny enough for you not to be freezing. The kind where you just want to be outside and enjoy the day by strolling through the woods. There’s something about this that makes me really happy and even happier when it’s around Christmas time.

Listening, Singing and Dancing to Music

For obvious reasons. Here are some of the songs I love to hear when I’m happy. And sing along like my life depends on it even though I sing horribly. Check out my Spotify Playlist: The Happiness Playlist

Stupid Jokes

I’m the kind of person who laughs pretty much about everything. But some jokes just get me so much that I start to cry whilst laughing and gasping for air. At if that isn’t happiness I don’t know what is.

A Good Book or Movie

Now this might seems to be odd. How can a book or a movie make me happy, right? But it’s not so much the form or genre it is but rather the endless creativity, inspiration or motivation you can get from them. Would you like me to do an entry about books and movies that inspired me a lot? Let me know in the comments.

The Ocean

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There is just something so calming about sitting by a sea or at the ocean especially alone with your thoughts that give me personally so much realization that I can feel whatever I want to feel but mostly just happiness.

The Endless Journey of Finding Myself

When I was younger I thought a main goal in life should be to know who you are. As I’ve grown older I’ve realized something. Just because you are something doesn’t necessarily mean you can’t be the other thing as well. I will never wake up one day and will be able to say I know who I am because I will never know. And I kind of like the idea of that it leaves a door open to the world of the unknown. Not knowing who you are doesn’t mean you don’t know what you want or where you want your life to lead it means you will be able to adjust to anything because you aren’t attaching yourself to any labels or restrictions. And to be able to see it like that makes me happy. Change is good and change is part of your life. And over your lifetime you will change to and that’s completely okay.

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Even though I haven’t done much traveling I do know that it makes me happy. I love adventuring into a new city and explore everything. And getting lost in a city you’ve never been to is somewhat freeing because you never know what you will experience. I love to travel the world one day and see everything and feel everything that there possibly is.

Dreams

To be able to dream is something that makes me very happy. Sometimes you need to escape your reality to create a new one and sometimes they just show you the right way. Dreams make me happy because a dream is not only something you have at night but a goal you can achieve if you work hard for it in the daytime. And achieving your dreams is something very magical and anything magical makes me happy.

And remember you can always choose to be happy. Darkness has no power over you unless you let it have it. Being happy is a choice. I hope you enjoyed today’s entry and if you did make sure to give it a thumbs up. I would really appreciate it!

I wish you all wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

Birthday Party – 2015

Hey my loves,

today I am sharing with you my Birthday Party Pictures with the Props I handcrafted some time ago. I had so much fun during the photo shoot and the rest of the evening! My friends and I always know how to have the most fun! Shout-out to them for making me feel very special and loved that day! I love you guys!

the food

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the photo booth shoots

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I can just recommend to you to do such a shoot, we had so much fun!

I wish you all a wonderful day!

XoXo, Jasmin.

Because of you I  laugh a little harder, cry a little less and smile a lot more.